Home again for a few days...

Okay so last night I came back home for a few days but I'm feeling the anxiety. To reinforce that what I am doing is a good thing I have been doing research on what is an ideal body weight for me. My anxiety I think comes most from wanting to get into a workout routine to be active and not knowing where to begin. I think that's my biggest problem right now. I haven't worked out this week at all and it's taking a toll on me. Yesterday I ate very well but after feeling my stomach in pain at night I started to freak out a little. I get down on myself that I am eating desserts because I want to gain healthy weight and I feel that is not going to help me gain healthy weight and not working out is making it that much worse. I need to get myself involved in something. I was thinking of trying out the Wii Fit today and maybe running to Target to get a dance DVD. I have my resistance band, free weights, exercise ball and workout mat...now what do I do with all of it? Finding a workout routine that is right for me is overwhelming me...ugh...I need some motivation.

1/4/10 First Change...

So as a new beginning to ME I decided to change my room around as part of a fresh new start to the semester and future! All my Christmas gifts add such a great touch to the room!! Here are some pictures!








I also had a pretty good day of eating. God I love eating, how could I have deprived myself of it for so long! I'm working on finding work out classes and routines to help tone while I gain this weight, it's looking like I won't be able to start it though until after school begins. That is such a BUMMER!! I did find healthy foods that will help gain healthy weight and I did read that resistance training is best when trying to gain weight. I also love to go through fitness magazine for good recipes and workout routines even though I have never used them before!

Sidenote: Continued reading the last book of Twilight! So good! Hopefully I can finish it soon!!!